simulacrum of life

sitting here right now, i think i'm beginning to understand how a commercial pilot feels. a life of routine mundane-ness. however, you can't really switch off, because your job is to be there just in case... just in case what, you may ask.. well.. that's just it.. just in case almost anything happens. if things screw up it's your head on the chopping block, hence the need to practice for a multitude of scenarios in simulator training. i'm quite certain that my job is nowhere near as risky, but the principle behind it is the same. i'm here to catch the ball if/when it falls. if things are going well, i'll be bored almost gormless like i am right now, hence this post. but if the gears aren't moving as they should, things get REALLY interesting. and not interesting in a good way.

one thing i must admit, being alone sure does give me oodles of time to be with myself and be comfortable being alone.